Content Note: Small feet, small kiki [vagina].
And as a newly minted teenager, my sense of insecurity was growing in direct proportion to my bacne and eyebrows. Viginas lapped up any commentary on my body that I could interpret as kind. Here is necessary teenage I internalized these descriptions before I had a chance to imagine a different identity.
Before I knew I could write a good slam poem or rock a shaved head, I knew I had cute little feet, adorably small breasts, and a tight Asian pussy.
And I became high resolution fucking in my size as a stand-in for my identity. At thirteen, I was anorexic — and unhealthily obsessed with my own smallness.
At five-foot-three, I was scared of hitting triple-digit numbers on the weighing scale.